Kevyn DeLaCruz. Why? Why did you have to become an asshole to me out of nowhere? Where did my best friend go? I miss you so much sometimes. You were like my better half. Being with you was the highlight of my day. I don’t think anyone understands how much you meant/mean to be. You were my best friend. To this day I’ll do anything for you if you asked. But you’ve been on some other shit lately. It kills me to know we aren’t as close as we use to be. Maybe it’s because you moved away from me. We lived so close I’d just walk to your house and we’d cuddle, fight, watch movies and bullshit. I miss that. I miss your sister and your mom. Your house was another home for me. I was so comfortable there. I miss it so much. I want you back in my life like you were before. But I have so much pride. I won’t  beg for you to be my best friend again. I just miss you. Thats all.  He was the only person I can say truly knew me. Every emotion I felt he knew it without asking me. And vice versa. I could tell you if he were happy or mad with one look at him. Everyone thought we would end up together because of how close we were. But frankly, it was just a friendship. We tried the something more thing but I ended it so fast that I never let the thought of being with him actually enter my mind. Dating your best friend sounds perfect to everyone. But I couldn’t lose him. And a relationship would risk that and I wouldn’t risk it. But now, there is nothing. He’s just another guy friend. And that kills me. I just want my best friend back. I can’t cry in front of anyone but I’ll never forget the day I was so stressed out and he hugged me. At that moment I broke. I cried so much on his shoulder and he didn’t say anything, he didn’t move, he just let me cry. I remember that day like it was yesterday. It was freshman year and I remember it so vividly. That day I realized he was my best friend. He was the only person I could cry in front of and not worry about anything. Hmph. Things change so fast.